Friday, November 28, 2008

The Stranger

The Stranger

This is very interesting and not the ending I had expected!!!!

A few years after I was born, my Dad met a stranger who was new to our small Texas town. From the beginning, Dad was fascinated with this enchanting newcomer and soon invited him to live with our family. The stranger was quickly accepted and was around from then on.

As I grew up, I never questioned his place in my family. In my young mind, he had a special niche. My parents were complementary instructors: Mom taught me good from evil, and Dad taught me to obey. But the stranger...he was our storyteller. He would keep us spellbound for hours on end with Adventures, mysteries and comedies.

If I wanted to know anything about politics, history or science, he always knew the answers about the past, understood the present and even seemed able to predict the future! He took my family to the first major league ball game. He made me laugh, and he made me cry. The stranger never stopped Talking, but Dad didn't seem to mind.

Sometimes, Mom would get up quietly while the rest of us were shushing each other to listen to what he had to say, and she would go to the kitchen for peace and quiet. (I wonder now if she ever prayed for the stranger to leave.)

Dad ruled our household with certain moral convictions, but the stranger never felt obligated to honor them. Profanity, for example, was not allowed in our home... Not from us, our friends or any visitors. Our longtime visitor, however, got away with four-letter words that burned my ears and made my dad squirm and my mother blush. My Dad didn't permit the liberal use of alcohol. But the stranger encouraged us to try it on a regular Basis. He made cigarettes look cool, cigars manly and pipes distinguished.
He talked freely (much too freely!) about sex. His comments were sometimes blatant, sometimes suggestive, and generally embarrassing.

I now know that my early concepts about relationships were influenced strongly by the stranger. Time after time, he opposed the values of my parents, yet he was seldom rebuked... And NEVER asked to leave.

More than fifty years have passed since the stranger moved in with our family. He has blended right in and is not nearly as fascinating as he was at first. Still, if you could walk into my parents' den today, you would still find him sitting over in his corner, waiting for someone to listen to him talk and watch him draw his pictures.

His name?.... .. .

We just call him 'TV.'

(Note: This should be required reading for every household in America !)

He has a wife now....We call her 'Computer.'

Thanksgiving pictures

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! We had a great time at my MIL's house. The food was great and we were all stuffed! We all played a game of Mexican Dominoes and had a blast doing that also. We got home around 11:15 last night and were sleepy!
Today I went to see my doctor and he gave me Xanax. I have never once in my life needed to take a pill for depression, anxiety, nothing. I guess I am at a point in my life that I need them. My doctor told me after hearing my life story so to speak, he is amazed that I have made it 33 years by simply dealing all on my own. He said my body is telling me I need some help lol. They wanted to give me an anti depressant also and I said no for now. I truly do not think I am depressed, I think I am completely and utterly sick of being sick. I am really frustrated not having the energy I used to, and I am very tired of not feeling like myself. If that makes me depressed, then maybe I am? He also said that there is a specific anti depressant that is commonly used for people with CFS/Fibromylagia so that is the biggest reason they want me to take them.
He asked me to take the Xanax for a week, up to 3 a day when needed and to please come back this coming Tuesday and we will go from there. If I feel like the Xanax is giving me the relief I need right now so badly, then he won't push me to take the other. If I am still have anxiety issues with the Xanax he wants me to start the anti depressant's also. Ultimately it is my choice and I am having a really hard time admitting I need to start taking pills to deal with life.
I do not want to become so dependant on them that everytime I have a bad day I need to take a pill to cope. It isn't me. I am NOT knocking anyone that does need to take these type of pills, so please noone get offended. I am simply speaking for myself. I have dealt with one tragedy after another my whole life and made it through is all I am saying, so I don't understand why that should be any different now. But it is and I have admitted I need to take something to help me deal with the stresses of my life that aren't going anywhere.
We are setting up our Christmas tree tomorrow. I usually do a color theme, but this year since our house is so multi colored we are going to make the tree multi colored. I will get some pictures once everything is decorated and post them. I did get alot of my house decorations put up last night and some outdoor lights on our deck. We have this cute santa and reindeer light, so I hung that and added some red and white bulbs with it.
My hubbies son is here for the weekend again also. So him and Ray are downstairs hanging out and we are relaxing. Tomorrow hubby and his son are taking our stinky dog to the self wash and giving him a good bath! I think I will tell him to bathe the truck also while there lol.
Starting Monday life is going to be so hectic. I am relaxing this weekend and trying to do very little to save some energy for Monday.
I still need lots of your snail addresses for Christmas cards. And to those who sent them already thank you ;) Chrissie I know I need yours still, Robin, Linda, Barb, Alvia, anyone who wants me to send a card please email me your address ;) I will be sending them out around the 10th of the month.
I hope everyone has a great weekend!!
Love & Hugs,

Zucchini & Beef soup (YUMMY!!)

I wanted to share a reciepe of the soup that everyone in my house LOVES! Even my kids love it, which is awesome since there is zucchini in it. The last picture of the green book is a reciepe book I have been making for years now of all of the favorites I feed my family all of the time. And the special stuff I make for holidays. I started it a long time ago with the idea that when my daughter moves out on her own I will pass the book along to her so that she has all the know how she needs to continue eating everything she has grown up eating and loves ;)
This soup is awesome because it is a low carb soup for those who care lol
Zucchini & Beef Soup
1/2 pound ground beef
2 celery ribs, thinly sliced
1/3 cup chopped onion
1/2 cup chopped green pepper
1 can (28 ounce) diced tomatoes, undrained
3 medium zucchini, cubed
2 cups of water
1 1/2 teaspoon of italian seasoning (I use Lowry's)
1 teaspoon of salt
1 teaspoon beef bouillon granules
1/2 teaspoon sugar
pepper to taste
Shredded Parmesan cheese
In a large saucepan, cook beef, celery, onion, and green pepper over medium heat until meat is no longer pink and vegetables are tender. Drain.
In a large pot add the meat mixture. Stir in tomatoes, zucchini, water, inalian seasoning salt, salt if desired, bouillon, sugar, and pepper.
Stir good.
Bring to a boil, reduce heat and cover.
Simmer for 20-25 minutes or until the zucchini is tender.
After served in bowls, garnish with the Parmesan cheese
This makes about 6 servings, I usually double the reciepe because everyone loves it so much in my house.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you and your families! I hope you all have a great day today and eat lots of good food and love each other! We are going to my MIL's house for dinner. She is cooking the turkey and I will cook the potatoes and stuffing over at her place. We are eating more than just that lol.

I started putting up my Christmas stuff tonight. I have the tree here and decorations ready to be set up this weekend also.

Starting next weekend it is going to be crazy busy around my house! We are doing Christmas early this year since our 19 year daughter is flying home for a week on the 10th of the month!! We cannot wait to see her and our grandson. It has been over a year since we have seen either one of them. It is going to feel so great to have her here for 5 days. But since she is leaving before Christmas, I have ALOT of shopping to get done before she gets here on the 10th!

My MIL is also having a double mastectomy done on the 8th of the month. My hubby will stay at her house the night before and bring her and I will get the kids on the bus and meet him at the hospital right after. The surgery is a long one and could take up to 12 hours so it will be a long day of worry! Everyone say a prayer for her that the surgery goes smoothly and she recovers easily and fast. We will bring our daughter and grandson see her in the hospital while they are here.

My daughter Rayanna needs a tooth pulled, Josh has appointments coming up also. As you all know Grant is not doing well and very possibly could pass away in December also.

My health is so bad right now because of stress and December is going to be off the charts stressful for me and my hubby. So I am going to breath in and breath out and take it one day at a time! I get worn out so easily where I feel I just need to sleep and it seems it takes me about 2 days to catch up after really over doing it for one day. So I praying that I find the strength inside myself to keep it going, and the strength to do all that needs to be done in December!

I cannot wait to hear what everyone ate for Thanksgiving in the next few days ;) I do know one thing, Robin will NOT be eating green beans lol!

Happy Thanksgiving again friends ;)
Love & hugs, Robyn

Naughty or Nice? (Gorjuss)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Real 911 Calls!

BELIEVE it or not ,
These are Nashville, TN's REAL 911 Calls!

Dispatcher : 9-1-1 What is your emergency?
Caller: I heard what sounded like gunshots coming from the brown house on the corner.
Dispatcher: Do you have an address?
Caller: No, I have on a blouse and slacks, why?

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is your emergency?
Caller : Someone broke into my house and took a bite out of my ham and cheese sandwich .
Dispatcher : Excuse me?
Caller : I made a ham and cheese sandwich and left it on the kitchen table and when I came back from the bathroom, someone had taken a bite out of it.
Dispatcher : Was anything else taken?
Caller : No, but this has happened to me before and I'm sick and tired of it!

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is the nature of your emergency?
Caller: I' m trying to reach nine eleven but my phone doesn't have an eleven on it.
Dispatcher: This is nine eleven.
Caller: I thought you just said it was nine-one-one
Dispatcher: Yes, ma'am nine-one-one and nine-eleven are the same thing.
Caller: Honey, I may be old, but I'm not stupid.

My Personal Favorite!!!
Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What's the nature of your emergency?
Caller: My wife is pregnant and her contractions are only two minutes apart
Dispatcher: Is this her first child?
Caller: No, you idiot! This is her husband!

And the winner is..........

Dispatcher: 9-1-1
Caller: Yeah, I'm having trouble breathing. I'm all out of breath. Darn....I think I'm going to pass out.
Dispatcher: Sir, where are you calling from?
Caller: I'm at a pay phone. North and Foster.
Dispatcher: ! Sir, an ambulance is on the way. Are you an asthmatic?
Caller: N o
Dispatcher: What were you doing before you started having trouble breathing?
Caller: Running from the Police.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Indian Time............

Hi everyone. In my family we have a long standing joke that we all run on "Indian time". Family functions, someone or half of us (or maybe all of us) are always fashionably late lol! I was reading my tribal newsletter this afternoon and saw and article that I wanted to share with all of you.

"Indian Time"

In today's world, time itself is different. In today's world, we have Central Standard Time, Mountain Standard Time, and daylight savings time. We have calendars, clocks and schedules. But we have forgotten time itself. The time of seaons; The time of the tides; the time of the moon. Our people followed these times. These are not man made times; these are nature's times.

The winged, the four-legged, the crawlers and the swimmers know these times. They will tell you if the winter will be long and hard. They will tell you if food will be scarce. They will share with you all you need to know. They do not manipulate time. There are no deadlines. No appointments. No schedules. In our traditions "time" is of the Creator. It is the new sunrise. It is the schedule of nature. It is a miracle.

Time is the four seasons. It is the four hills of life.

SPRING is a time of new beginnings. It is a time of birth for all things. The time of new life. It is the first hill of life. A time of love and nurturing.

SUMMER is a time of fullness. A time of growth. It is the second hill of life. It is the time of our youth. It is the time of long, hot days. A time of learning about oneself and the world around you.

FALL is the time of change. The leaves turn color; the day begins to shorten; the third hill of life. Time to go within. Fall is the time we become grandmothers and grandfathers. We become teachers. We prepare for the fourth hill of life; for being an elder. Time to focus on being alone with the creator.

WINTER is a time when all life is at rest, covered with a warm blanket of snow. Time to slow down. It is the fourth hill of life. Time to gather and share stories. It is a time to share teachings with patience and love, and above all, kindness.

We do not dictate time. We do not set time. Time is the Creator. Time is perfect.

Grandmother Moon is time. She regulates the tides. Her pull is strong. She teaches and guides the women. Grandmother Moon lights our way in times of darkness.

Grandfather Sun is time. He gives life to all things. He announces the new day. Grandfather Sun shares his warmth unconditionally; with the rich; with the poor; with the wretched; with the righteous.

Time is life. Our elders teach us time is scared. Do not be angry if it is not time. Do not wish time would hurry and pass. Do not waste your time. You will know when it is time.

Time is woman! Woman is scared; The givers of life; the heart of the people. Women provide strength, understanding, wisdom and humor. All that is, is part female.

Time is man! Man is the strength! the provider; the protector. All that is, is part male.

Time is all we have. Time to be what the Creator intended. Time to share what the Creator so willingly gave us. Time to love. Time to be grateful.

So you see, "Indian Time" is many things. It is not being late. It is not setting the clock. It is not a lack of respect. "Indian Time" is the Creator at work; letting things happen "in it's own time"; assuring the "time is right"; knowing "time will tell".

It is this part of our beliefs and practices that seem to interfere with the concept of "time" in today's world. It is this part which makes it difficult to follow set times. Even though we've assimilated our daily behaviors to the present world situation, our concept of time remains "Indian".
Love & hugs to you all! Robyn

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

The greatest thing (Gorjuss)

Gorjuss happiness

Real blogs, real people awards


Thank you to Sugar for passing the award to me & also to Alvia, I'm honored. This award is for passing on to other people. Now it is my turn to choose. This is so hard, there are so many good journals/blogs that I follow, but I can't name them all! I hope that those I have NOT mentioned, will be chosen by others. I have not recieved many awards and am not sure how to word it so I copied Sug's explanation with a little of my own changes lol!

Here are the rules, (I changed them a bit(Sug changed them a bit I think lol):
1. Please put the logo on your journal - Real People/Real Blogs.
2. Place a link from the person, from whom you received the award.
3. Nominate as many as you want (2-10 being ideal).
4. Put the links of those on your journal.
5. Leave a comment on their journal to let them know.
6. Put the award on your sidebar, if you want.Here are my choices and abve is their award:

1. Alvia, he shares some really cool tags he makes!

2. Robin, she is a riot who I have just recently started following since we all moved over here.

3. Linda, this lady is so sweet! And she loves her some Pooh ;)

4. Sharon, she hasn't been around much since we switched over but she is worthy of this award ;)

5. Nelishia, she is private but most of you know her and love her just as much as I do!

6.Lisa Jo, she is private also but she is a beautiful lady with a heart of gold ;)

7. Dirk, Ne's sweet husband deserves this award also ;)

I truly could go on and on but alot of you have already recieved it so I will stop here! Love you all so much!
Hugs, Robyn

Monday, November 17, 2008

Pink snowman set

Gorjuss pink snow

Cabin, snow, ice, home now........

Hi everyone. On Saturday we went to a cabin up north until today. Life stresses are a huge part of what is making me sick and my body is so not right, my heart is giving me a hard time. Which is something very new to me, so when my heart starts beating fast and hurting (the pain is weird it truly hurts) it is scary for me since I have never felt anything like it before. Maybe this is normal for some people who deal with Bronchitis issues, or asthma, or anxiety attacks but it is scary stuff to me! On Saturday early in the afternoon my mom called me. She hasn't called since she did what she did to my son. I was laying in bed (the place I spend the most time now lol) and my daughter handed me the phone.

The first thing she said to me (Drunk as could be of course) was "Robyn, I am ready to go to rehab now." In the past I would have been the one every time to see that she was taken care of as far as getting her into somewhere, dropping her off at detox, taking care of her house, ect. This time around I CANNOT do it! I told her I would call my brother and sister and call her back. I tried to call them both but could not get a hold of them for hours. In between I decided to take my hubby and kids to a cabin a few hours away for a couple days, because I cannot deal with her stuff right now considering there is a really good likelyhood that the problems I am having started due to the hurt and devastation she caused me in July.

So I found a really nice cabin a couple hours away and called to see if they had opening, they did. So we packed up in about 40 minutes and left with the kids and our dog. I took some pictures to show you all. The cabin was great! It snowed our second day there pretty good. And the two pictures of the ice on the shoreline is how much ice built up in just the two nights, 3 days we were there! Crazy! Our cabin was steps from the lake. I think we are going to go back there this summer when it is warm out because the resort is awesome. It was only a one bedroom cabin, but you will see in the pictures that there were two Murphy beds in the cabin (Which my kids thought was the coolest thing in the world!)

Now we are home again and I would give anything to feel like myself again! My mom did get taken to detox on Saturday afternoon, and was released today. I think the plan is still for her to get into a longer term rehab, but I am not sure. History would show she may back out of it now that she is home and sober from detox.

Part of me really wishes for selfish (maybe it's not) reasons she would get into somewhere because I have SO much I need to say to her and a family week would be the perfect safe place to do it. I need her to take accountability for what she did. I need to have her try to explain to me how even in her drunken stupor she got to that point that her demons took over and allowed her to hurt my kids the way she did! I need to know why the hell it has taken her months to realize she needs help badly! I need to know why she hurt us the way she did and has not attempted to make amends. And I need to let her know just how much she truly did hurt me, and just how much impact her actions for one hours time affected my life every day since!

Enough said about that because I think maybe, just maybe I have alot more dealing on my own part to do and it gets me really worked up just typing about it.

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

Hugs & Love, Robyn