Friday, November 28, 2008
I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! We had a great time at my MIL's house. The food was great and we were all stuffed! We all played a game of Mexican Dominoes and had a blast doing that also. We got home around 11:15 last night and were sleepy!
Today I went to see my doctor and he gave me Xanax. I have never once in my life needed to take a pill for depression, anxiety, nothing. I guess I am at a point in my life that I need them. My doctor told me after hearing my life story so to speak, he is amazed that I have made it 33 years by simply dealing all on my own. He said my body is telling me I need some help lol. They wanted to give me an anti depressant also and I said no for now. I truly do not think I am depressed, I think I am completely and utterly sick of being sick. I am really frustrated not having the energy I used to, and I am very tired of not feeling like myself. If that makes me depressed, then maybe I am? He also said that there is a specific anti depressant that is commonly used for people with CFS/Fibromylagia so that is the biggest reason they want me to take them.
He asked me to take the Xanax for a week, up to 3 a day when needed and to please come back this coming Tuesday and we will go from there. If I feel like the Xanax is giving me the relief I need right now so badly, then he won't push me to take the other. If I am still have anxiety issues with the Xanax he wants me to start the anti depressant's also. Ultimately it is my choice and I am having a really hard time admitting I need to start taking pills to deal with life.
I do not want to become so dependant on them that everytime I have a bad day I need to take a pill to cope. It isn't me. I am NOT knocking anyone that does need to take these type of pills, so please noone get offended. I am simply speaking for myself. I have dealt with one tragedy after another my whole life and made it through is all I am saying, so I don't understand why that should be any different now. But it is and I have admitted I need to take something to help me deal with the stresses of my life that aren't going anywhere.
We are setting up our Christmas tree tomorrow. I usually do a color theme, but this year since our house is so multi colored we are going to make the tree multi colored. I will get some pictures once everything is decorated and post them. I did get alot of my house decorations put up last night and some outdoor lights on our deck. We have this cute santa and reindeer light, so I hung that and added some red and white bulbs with it.
My hubbies son is here for the weekend again also. So him and Ray are downstairs hanging out and we are relaxing. Tomorrow hubby and his son are taking our stinky dog to the self wash and giving him a good bath! I think I will tell him to bathe the truck also while there lol.
Starting Monday life is going to be so hectic. I am relaxing this weekend and trying to do very little to save some energy for Monday.
I still need lots of your snail addresses for Christmas cards. And to those who sent them already thank you ;) Chrissie I know I need yours still, Robin, Linda, Barb, Alvia, anyone who wants me to send a card please email me your address ;) I will be sending them out around the 10th of the month.
I hope everyone has a great weekend!!
Love & Hugs,