Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Monday, January 26, 2009

2 DOTW sets before I delete them. That's it for now ;)

Cleaning house part 2 snag before I delete....

Bringing back some oldies.....(MILD AC in some) Cleaning house lol snag before I delete ;)


Cute tag but I sure wish I knew what was supposed to be FUN about winter? I drove my daughter to school this morning and my truck said it was -17!! That doesn't even count the windchill. Taking the dog outside to potty is miserable! I asked LJ if she had a face mask for her stupid cart parties she has to do and she said she would look like a robber and cracked me up! I didn't care one single bit about how funny I looked when I took my dog out at midnight last night because he wouldn't stop crying I put that mask on ;)

There is just no amount of bundling you can do honestly! When it is that cold outside you just shouldn't be out there for long. I know the weather is crazy all over right now! I hope you are all staying warm and safe if you are getting this horrid cold, snow, ice or rain! Perfect weather to have your fireplace going and drink a hot cup of tea.

Tomorrow my daughter Rayanna is having a International picnic at school. She is bringing in these little turkey, butter, cheese and cucumber sandwiches on Baguette bread and little pastries. So tonight I cut up two whole loaves of the bread and she buttered it and made the little sandwiches and we filled a big pan with them and stuck toothpicks in them so they wouldn't all fall apart by morning.

My hubby is still so sick! He is out of bed right now for the first time since 2 days ago right now. He has pretty much been in bed for 2 days straight. Ate near to nothing or even drank anything. Tonight I got him some cherry 7up, watermelon, and saltine crackers. He has seemed to keep them all down so that is good. But now his back is killing him from being in bed for two days. Hopefully he will start feeling normal within the next two days!

Josh has a fever also but goes about his daily routine like nothing is wrong. Either way, he had to stay home today also because of the fever. Seems so many are sick or have a family member sick right now!

I just wish Spring would hurry up and get here and it would warm up!

I have a couple different options I am considering right now and have a couple days to decide what we will do about moving. One thing I think some of you may not realize is that we have been living in Corporate housing for almost two years. Meaning the house is furnished. We have a trailer full of our own stuff we move with us and that is all. So when you see new pictures of my house it is mostly Corporate's furnishings not our own. Some have commented how do you unpack and get situated so quickly? That is how lol! We have 3 big storage units FULL of our own stuff about 30 minutes from where we live.

We used to stay in corporate units when Josh had his surgeries and we had to travel for extended periods of times. I don't know how many of you remember but when we moved out of our own house almost 2 years ago we packed up a almost 4000 square foot house that was full top to bottom in 13 days and left. We had huge plumbing issues and found out there was mold in the house making us sick. So we decided to move sooner than later. When we moved from our own house we needed something quick so we ended up in corporate. We just haven't seemed to find the right place since then and as you have seen the units we have lived in are all very nice, nicely decorated and easy. I pay one lump amount and they take care of everything. Meaning electric, gas, water, garbage, cable, internet, ect.

But now that my pay has decreased so much the high amount I pay is just not justifiable anymore. We need to be back into our own place with our own stuff and set up our own house again. I miss my stuff! I miss my collections, my art. Aside from the high price for rent each month I also pay $560.00 a month for our stuff to be in storage. So in all honesty when I say we may need to move again. We are not losing "Our" house, we are really regaining "Our" house. Which definately is not a bad thing. It is just a HUGE move because we have so much stuff.

Well I should wrap this up and go switch the laundry and sweep my kitchen floor. Seems I was going to do laundry when I ended my last entry also....Sigh.............. lol

Hugs & Love, Robyn

Be mine? (MILD AC)

Sunday, January 25, 2009

My first AOL entry ever (Copying LJ :)

I started just recently reading other peoples journals, and man they can suck ya in! So I started thinking with my life and all things I feel and go thru on a daily basis this is a great way to let some of it out! This is going to be a long entry that will have to be continued at another time I am sure because I am going to start from the beginning of pregnancy with my son. For starters I have a daughter Rayanna who is 8 years old also, and I am raising my 15 year old sister also. I live with my soulmate we have been together 8 years and I do not know what I would do without him. I have a dog named Romeo, a lizard named Dracko, and a fish named Red lol. I am an old fashioned romantic type who loves to hang out at home with my family and enjoy the simple things in life. But the catcher is that since the day I found out about being pregnant with my son my life has been anything short of simple and relaxing. Its strange the way the world works, how one thing in this huge world can change someones life so drastically overnight! In the blink of eye! Lets start at the beginning now that I got the introduction out of the way lol..........
Joshua's Story....
I missed my cycle and had a feeling I was pregnant(but my cycles have not been regular for a long time!), but 5 home pregnancy tests begged to differ. One night Bill and I were laying in our living room watching TV and he got kicked in the head! lol. He said "I do not care what those tests say we are going to the doctor because you are most definately pregnant" So I made an appointment and within the week we were there.
Well obviously I was pregnant, and we had no idea how far along I was since I was so irregular, so I was told that they were sending me to Fairview Riverside for a level 2 ultrasound so we could get a estimated due date. A few days later we went to that appointment and after doing the ultrasound a doctor walks into our room and asks me " So do you know what is wrong with your baby?" We looked at her and said "No, we were not aware we were sent here because something is wrong" I do not think she knew that my ObGyn had not forwarned us.
So we were in shock, scared, sad, confused, and really angry for not being forwarned of what we were being told there. Well we then found out I was very close togoing into my 3rd trimester already. Talk about not much time to prepare ;) The doctor told us she would bring us into a meeting room and give us the list of things that may be wrong with our son. We went into the room and sat down and listened as she named 3 things that it could be.
1. Acrodysplasia
2. Something Chromosome related, like downs syndrome and
3. Craniosynostosis.
His limbs were shorter then normal in the ultrasound. She asked if I wanted to do an Amniocentesis that they could then tell me if it were genetic or chromosomal abnormalities. But I am a very high risk pregnancy, I have never carried full term. And doing the Amnio could have sent me into early labor, so we told her " Its not going to change anything, nor help us to know right now, so no I am absolutely not going to take the risk of bringing him into this world any sooner then he needs to be.
We left the doctors, crying and feeling all the same emotions I wrote a little bit up. We went home and did searches on the internet for all 3 things it could be. No text books, nor internet sites can prepare you for what your life is going to be like when your child is born especially when we were not sure what he really had.
Well 4 weeks (yep thats it from the time of that ultrasound, so 5 weeks total) he decided he was ready to come into this world 2 months early. I delivered him at Abbott Hospital in Minneapolis, Mn because Childrens Hospital is right across the street. I actually went to Methodist Hospital first, where my Obgyn was after my water broke, but he sent me by ambulance downtown because he said they were not equipped to deal with my son.
He was born on October 19th, 1998 and thats the day my whole life changed! The first two years seemed like a whirlwind! When Joshua was delivered they had a team of PICU (Pediatric Intensive Care Unit) docs there who wisked him away as fast as I could blink it seemed. We still at this point had absolutely no idea what was wrong with him! What a helpless feeling! I wanted to crawl in his body and take it all away! I am going to end this for awhile, I need to get my kids in the tub and to bed. I will continue later.......

Then I finished up some more of Josh's story and changed my purpose................

I am having one of those days lol! I am not feeling very well, and all and everything seems to be getting on my nerves, must be because I am sick. I still have lots to add to my sons story, but really want to start using this for the purpose I made it as my breathing room ;) It is finally getting warmer again here, man what a tease Mother Nature was a couple weeks ago! It was in the lower 80's and upper 70's then bam all the sudden last week again it was sort of snowing and 30 degrees. Well today it is 74 again so heats off for the 3rd time lol. No wonder everyone in my house is sick! My 8 year old is a great little girl with a heart of gold BUT man she can argue, she acts as tho she is 90 years old with all the wisdom in the world on ALL subjects not just some lol, and if she thinks she is right about something she will not let it go. And my 15 year old sister I raise is well need I say more? 15 year old girl? :) She is grounded until tomorrow, and called after school to see if a friend could come over and of course my answer was "No your still grounded" she didn't like that answer much so when I picked her up she had an attitude. KIDS! lol
On a whole different subject I was watching The Search for the Funniest Mom in America on Nickelodian a day ago and the woman who won is the nurse at the urgent care I go to, she just checked me in about a month ago. That was pretty cool to see! She is a single mother with 2 boys and won $50,000.00 and has a chance of being on her own series. How awesome for her! Then I was watching my tivo'd American Idol results and was surprised at the outcome, Anthony stayed? I thought for sure he would be the one going. Oh well I really not that hooked on any TV shows so it isnt going to ruin my week or anything ;) Well my son is going to be getting off the bus soon so I should get going. Bye for now......

Then this................

I Have Learned
I have learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I have learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I have learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I have learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.
I have learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.
I have learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.
I have learned that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it.
I have learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I have learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
I have learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I have learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.
I have learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I have learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I have learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I have learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I have learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to takeits place.
I have learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I have learned that learning to forgive takes practice.
I have learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
I have learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I have learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I have learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.
I have learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I have learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I have learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I have learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I have learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I have learned that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.
I have learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I have learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I have learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I have learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I have learned that sometimes when my friends fight, I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to.
I have learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I have learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
I have learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I have learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I have learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I have learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.
I have learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.
I have learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.
I have learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.
I have learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I have learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I have learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
I have learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.
I have learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I have learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
I have learned that although the word "love" can have many different meanings, it loses value when overly used.
I have learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

A great true story!

This is outstanding

Luke AFB is west of Phoenix and is rapidly being surrounded by civilization that complains about the noise from the base and its planes, forgetting that it was there long before they were. A certain lieutenant colonel at Luke AFB deserves a big pat on the back. Apparently an individual who lives somewhere near Luke AFB wrote the local paper complaining about a group of F-16s that disturbed his/her day at the mall.When that individual read the response from a Luke AFB officer, it must have stung quite a bit.

The complaint:'Question of the day for Luke Air Force Base:Whom do we thank for the morning air show? Last Wednesday, at precisely 9:11 A.M, a tight formation of four F-16 jets made a lowpass over Arrowhead Mall, continuing west over Bell Road at approximately 500 feet. Imagine our good fortune! Do the Tom Cruise-wannabes feel we need this wake-up call, or were they trying to impress the cashiers at Mervyns early bird special? Any response would be appreciated.

The response:Regarding 'A wake-up call from Luke's jets. On June 15, at precisely 9:12 a.m., a perfectly timed four- ship fly by of F-16s from the 63rd Fighter Squadron at Luke Air Force Base flew over the grave of Capt. Jeremy Fresques. Capt Fresques was an Air Force officer who was previously stationed at Luke Air Force Base and was killed in Iraq on May 30, Memorial Day.At 9 a. m. on June 15, his family and friends gathered at Sunland Memorial Park in Sun City to mourn the loss of a husband, son and friend. Based on the letter writer's recount of the fly by, and because of the jet noise, I'm sure you didn't hear the 21-gun salute, the playing of taps, or my words to the widow and parents of Capt. Fresques as I gave them their son's flag on behalf of the President of the United States and all those veterans and servicemen and women who understand the sacrifices they have endured..A four-ship fly by is a display of respect the Air Force gives to those who give their lives in defense of freedom. We are professional aviators and take our jobs seriously, and on June 15 what the letter writer witnessed was four officers lining up to pay their ultimate respects.The letter writer asks, 'Whom do we thank for the morning airshow?" The 56th Fighter Wing will make the call for you, and forward your thanks to the widow and parents of Capt Fresques, for it was in their honor that my pilots flew the most honorable formation of their lives.Only 2 defining forces have ever offered to die for you....Jesus Christ and the American Soldier.One died for your soul, the other for your freedom.Lt. Col. Grant L. Rosensteel, Jr.USAF